Porn and the Prophetic: Breaking Free from a Hidden Struggle

Alright, let’s just rip the Band-Aid off: I struggled with a porn addiction. Whew, okay, I said it. Now let’s hope my mom never stumbles across this, but hey, I’m already in deep with a post called Horny and Holy, so I might as well go all the way, right?

Here’s the thing—when God restores your identity, you stop caring so much about what people think of you. What used to be this secret shame for me, I’m ready to talk about openly now, because there’s freedom in transparency. And if I’m being honest, I know I’m not the only woman who’s dealt with this. Porn addiction isn’t just a “guy thing.” For a lot of women, this is a hidden struggle. We just don’t talk about it as much.

For a long time, I didn’t even think porn was a big deal. Back when I was living in the culture, I shrugged it off like, “No harm, no foul.” Sure, I had some guilt at first, but repeated sin has a funny way of normalizing itself. You get comfortable. Before I knew it, I was knee-deep, telling myself it was harmless. But the more I indulged, the more I started to notice how it was twisting things in my life—especially how I saw myself and my relationships.

I thought it wasn’t affecting me, but it was. It messed with my mind, my sense of intimacy, and how I connected with others. And that shame? It sits quietly in the background, growing the longer you hide it.

Here’s where it gets good. When I went through deliverance, God started revealing things to me about who I really am. And let me tell you—my identity is not tied to my addiction, my body image, or the lies I used to believe.

For the longest time, I had this warped view of my body, fed by porn and society’s unrealistic standards. I didn’t think I measured up, and I tried to cover up those insecurities by focusing on the wrong things. But through God’s grace, I realized my worth isn’t found in how I look or what I do—it’s found in Him alone.

God reminded me that my body is a temple, not a place for shame or distorted images. It’s a place where His Spirit dwells. And once I embraced that truth, it changed everything. It wasn’t just about walking away from porn; it was about stepping fully into the identity God had already given me.

Here’s where it hit me hard: my addiction wasn’t just affecting how I saw myself—it was affecting my spiritual gifts. When you’re stuck in something like porn, it’s like static in your relationship with God. You can’t hear Him clearly. You feel disconnected, and your ability to walk in your calling gets muddied.

But after deliverance, it was like God flipped a switch. I started hearing Him again. I became more sensitive to His voice and His leading, and my prophetic gift came alive in a way I hadn’t experienced before. It was like God had cleared out the noise and brought me back into alignment with His purpose for me.

And I realized, that’s exactly what the enemy wants to steal from us. Not just our purity, but our clarity, our identity, and our ability to walk in the gifts God has given us.

So, What’s the Takeaway?

If you’ve ever struggled with porn—whether you’re in the thick of it now or you’ve come out on the other side—I want you to know that you’re not alone. And there’s no shame in admitting it. God already knows. The freedom comes when you step into the light and let Him heal those parts of you that have been kept in the dark for too long.

Through deliverance, I learned that true freedom isn’t just about saying “no” to sin—it’s about saying “yes” to the person God created you to be. It’s about stepping into His love, His grace, and the gifts He’s placed inside you.

This is me, all in—hoping my mom never reads this but not hiding anymore. I’ve walked the road of addiction, and I’ve walked into freedom. And if He can do it for me, He can do it for you. Each step, each piece of the journey, is adding peace to your life.

What weight are you carrying that God wants to help you lose? Whatever it is, it’s time to let go, walk in freedom, and embrace who He’s called you to be. Because this waiting season? It’s a time of refinement and renewal, and God’s got a beautiful plan for you on the other side.

A Prayer for Freedom

If you’re tired of carrying the weight of your struggles and ready to step into freedom, here’s your moment to ask Jesus into your heart and let Him take over. Just pray this with me:

“Jesus, I need You. I’m done carrying this alone. I believe You died for me and rose again so I could live free. Forgive me, come into my heart, and lead me into the life You’ve planned for me. Thank You for loving me through it all. Amen.”

If you prayed that, know that Jesus is right there with you. This is the start of something real, and He’s ready to walk with you every step of the way.

Chassitie L.